Frustration

There is pretty much one word that sums it all up right about now...

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

And yes,that is me screaming.

Designing in process

Since Christmas is over and most all the decorations are put away, I thought that it was time to change to blog look. So while you are only looking at one of my children in the header, I am in the process of trying to learn how to make a collage of all my favorite pictures of them through out the year. I also am trying to get my thoughts together to for my next blog. It seems as though, I always have something to say, but I never feel like typing it out. Check back later...

A Christmas Poem

One of my dear friends shared this on her facebook that a family member left for her family right before Christmas when she passed away. I find this poem to be very touching, especially if you have los ta loved one during the holiday season.



I see the countless Christmas trees
Around the world below,
With tiny lights like heaven's stars
Reflecting in the snow.

...The sight is so spectacular
please wipe away that tear
for I am spending CHRISTMAS
WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
but the sound of music can't compare
with the CHRISTMAS CHOIR up here.

I have no words to tell you
of the JOY their voices bring
for it is beyond description
to HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending CHRISTMAS
WITH JESUS CHRIST this year.

I can't tell you of the SPLENDOR
or the PEACE here in this place
Can you just imagine CHRISTMAS
WITH OUR SAVIOR face to face

I'll ask him to lift your spirit
as I tell him of your love
so then PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER
as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful
and let your spirit sing
or I am spending CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN
and I’m walking WITH THE KING.

Frosted Creations

Go check out my bff's facebook fan page. They make wonderful cakes. When they make the cakes, they take it to heart and make it perfect or as close to perfect as they possibly can. Not to mention that they are super yummy!


http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/pages/Frosted-Creations/172961652725687

Knocking

As most of you know, yesterday we had to go to the cardiologist with Steph. The day seemed to take a rough start considering the weather was aweful. I left the map on how to get to the discounted parking deck at home, and by the time to let Dallas out of the car at school, it looked as is a sunami was coming through Remlap. When we got to Pinson, most every traffice light was out and we was in a 1/2 mile radius for about 30-45 minutes. I knew that my luck would have to get better by the time that I got downtown to UAB; and lets just say that it did. I knew exactly where the WIC(Womens and Childrens Center) was at, I just had to find the parking deck. When we got to the correct pd, I was able to find a parking spot right in front of the second floor entrance. Everyone there was extremely nice and didn't seem to be bothered that they had to give me directions across the "hundreds" of crosswalks around there. We got to the office and it wasn't 2 minutes before they took Steph back and started her on an EKG while I finished signing some release forms. When the doctor came in and started asking questions, he had asked her what the chest pains felt like....She responded, and I quote "Like someone is knocking on a door". When she said that, the room got comfortably cool and I had a peace like I've not had in a while. Everything seemed to get better while we was there. I know that God was there with us and he had his hand in every moment of it. When I got home though, it seemed like the devil did everything he could do to hinder me. Just when I found a great deal at Polka dots and flip flops and won a hairbow that was half off, the devil found a way to make me question myself how I was going to pay for it. I did get worried and it got me moody, but as the night went on, I had one of my best friends call and it cheered me up. I have learned something from last night though, everyone gets wrapped up in the whole Christmas gift giving thing, that they don't see what the true meaning of Christmas is. My girls may not have as much this year as what they have had in years past, but what I know they are getting, they will love. But to top it off, I am currently in a big lead with The Dancing Elephant for a free tutu in a referal contest. Thank you to all my facebook friends who have taken part in that for/with me. I am so thankful for y'all doing this and if I do win the tutu, Dallas will LOVE it.


As I have been thinking about Christmas, my mom told me they was going to get me something even if I tell them not to. So I told her what I could really use and a few things that I simply want. The list includes an iron/ironing board, a can opener that works, steak knives and other good kitchen ware, and a few pairs of jeans(I'm down to 1 1/2 pairs[one is about to fall apart on the inside leg]). To the list of things that I simply want is candles, and house decorations.

P.S. As of Tuesday December 7, I will be halfway to 50!!

It's cold outside

I have wanted to write so bad but couldn't find the words to put out. It's one week away from Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for. I am one of the very many lucky people to say that I have been saved and that I do live my life to the best of my ability for God. He has given me a family that I may not see eye to eye with at times, but we all love each other-regardless. He has also given me three AMAZING children who are my world. Everything that I do, I do it for them. I love being able to wake up of a morning and making the 20 minute drive to Remlap everyday. I love how they are each their OWN person and diffrent in their own ways, but still alot alike at the same time. I have the best "in-laws" that anyone could ask for. While most of them may not like me too much, they are still great. I learn from them to keep my patience at a maximum high so I don't "blow my top" too often. I am lucky that I still have Robert in my life through all these years. He does so much for me and the kids. I try everyday to let him know how much he means to us and how thankful we are for him. He is my best friend! God is great, life is great!

Manic Monday

Six o'clock already
I was just in the middle of a dream
I was kissin' Valentino
By a crystal blue Italian stream
But I can't be late
'Cause then I guess I just won't get paid
These are the days
When you wish your bed was already made

It's just another manic Monday
I wish it was Sunday
'Cause that's my funday
My I don't have to runday
It's just another manic Monday

Have to catch an early train
Got to be to work by nine
And if I had an air-o-plane
I still couldn't make it on time
'Cause it takes me so long
Just to figure out what I'm gonna wear
Blame it on the train
But the boss is already there

All of the nights
Why did my lover have to pick last night
To get down
Doesn't it matter
That I have to feed the both of us
Employment's down
He tells me in his bedroom voice
C'mon honey, let's go make some noise
Time it goes so fast
When you're having fun


I woke up with this song in my head. I can't help but to dread Mondays. They really aren't that bad and it actually gives you a fresh start to the week. And this Monday, today, is a good one. Why you ask? Because it's...November!! I was able to save a whole lotta money this year on costumes, yet they kids got ooohs and ahhs everywhere we went. The only money that was spent, was for Steph's pants. Halloween was just simple and pure fun this year.

We have one more football game left for the first season with the Mustangs! It's bittersweet to see it come to an end. I know I've said it before, but it means a whole lot to be a part of it as a parent. I wish they would have had it back in my day, but at least my kids have it now for them. We played Oneonta this past weekend and I must say that I could have called a much better game than what the refs did. Although the numbers show that we lost, I believe in my heart that we clearly won. And the is for both the Sophomores and Juniors. I am so proud of all you boys and girls. We play Hayden this week and I am really looking forward to it. Steph's 'boyfriend' plays on the Hayden sophomore team and she is soo excited to get to cheer him on while still getting to cheer her sister on as she cheers. I wouldn't be surprised to catch Steph on the Hayden side a few times throughout the game. I am also sure that Jesse is going to be cheering Steph on during her game as she cheers. After the games, Dallas will be going home with her bff Lexie and Steph will be staying over at my parents house. I will once again have a Saturday night to just me and Kent. I said it's great to be a Mustang fan!!

I am going to share a few pictures while I get the rest of my thoughts together...

Facebook

As most of you know, I am a big fan of 96.5 here in Birmingham. The girls and I listen every morning on our way to school, considering it's just about the only thing kid friendly on. Well on my way home from taking them this morning, I heard something rather disturbing...about Facebook!! A mother in Florida had killed her child over a Facebook app called Farmville!! I don't know about you, but that is rather crazy. I know that I stay on Facebook more than I should, but it's a game. I have way more important things going on than to sit around all day long playing games. I was reading some comments on a news website that people was talking about her being on Welfare and other government help. It's people like her that make others on it look bad. I am not taking complete advantage of the gavernment by being on Medicaid or Foodstamps. I am on it because I truly do need it. If it wasn't for Medicaid, my kids would never go to the dentist or to the doctor when they get sick. Robert and I just simply can't afford to pay for insurance with his little income that he has. The same goes for Foodstamps. We even tried for about a month or two once we moved in over here to not have to have it, but it got to where the kids was going hungry except for when they was at school. I have heard so many people say that the pretty much need to get rid of it except for elders and handicap people. I guess all I am trying to say is that there are everyday people out there who truly need it. I have even known of people who was trying to make it through college who couldn't afford food, so they had to get on foodstamps. Let me note also, that only the kids are on Medicaid. Not Robert and I. So when we do get sick, we have to ride it out, even if it takes us a month or however long to get over it.


I feel a picture post coming later. I took some picture yesterday just playing around, and I don't really feel lik putting them on my Facebook. So check back later

A Happy Birthday

So much has been going on that I don't know where to begin, haha. For one, I seem to always have "drama" around me. It usually always stinks, and other times, I could really care less. But this time, it hit really hard to home, and made me realize why I don't want anything to do with some of my siblings. I know that it more that likely sounds unchristian like, but it's very true. Why do I want to be around someone who drinks,does drugs, steal, lie, cheat, and so on? I have put up with all this from a few people in my life, to where that now I'm an adult, that I see how stupid it is and that they more than likely can not help themselves unless they get their life right with God. I have tried to witness to these people and still never seems to do any good. It also may come across as sibling jealousy/rivalry. But to be honest, it goes back to the parents. I know as a matter of fact (and others have noticed this too) that when certain siblings are around, my mom treats others and their kids comepletely diffrent and wrongly. I love my parents, but this should not be happening now that all the kids are adults. I know that when the other person(s) are gone and moved elsewhere, that they will be calling me begging me to come back around, and then in a few months; everything will go back to where it is now. I can partially see why my sister left when she did. Oh well......

Cheerleading practice one day a week now!!! I cannot begin to express how happy and relieved this makes me.

Today is Robert's 29th birthday!! I did everything I could to make it a good one for him. It was nothing elaborant, but was able to keep it small but special. I cooked him one of his favorite meals and his sister and brother-in-law came over with their two super sweet boys. I love Robert so much, and I know that we have our moments, but at the end of the day, I am always thankful to have had another day with/around him.

ps--I hope all this rain lifts the fire ban. I am in dire need of a good bon fire with my kids!

61

...days until Christmas! Though Christmas is going to be a little tight this year, I know that it's going to be one of the best also. I am really stuck on what to get Steph for Christmas. She has asked for a straight iron for her hair. But other than that, I am clueless. Suggestions would be great!!

We went to a fall festival at a church last night. The kids had fun and had gotten just enough candy. They dressed in their costumes, but I forgot all about my camera until we got home. By then, Dallas was the only one still in her costume. I thought it was really cute, and a special thanks to my mom for doing her shirt last minute. It looks great!!















With today being my only off day from sports and school, we are busy cleaning house from top to bottom. Not like it is that bad. But I have been slacking on the dusting here lately. I hope to get extra toys and clothes gone.

10 Years Back

I thought I would give a sneak peak into Steph's costume this year. It's really simple and super cute!!




Dallas is going to be a black eyed P and Kent is going to be a train conductor. So as Steph walked in Danielle's house, everyone complimented her on her costume. I felt kinda bad for leaving her, but when I left she was having fun and didn't really seem to care that I was or wasn't there. Needless to say that's all it took to get my crying on the way back to my parents. It's been 10 years since she was concieved. I never got enough time with her and it's all because I was a selfish and immature parent at the time. I wish I would have put more bows in her hair and dressed in her in cute dresses most all the time. When I picked her up tonight, I once again realized what great friends she has. She has made new friends cheering for football, but they don't compare to the friends she has had since Kindergarten which is the same girls she plays basketball with and has cheered for basketball with in past years. I had a feeling of regret tonight for not letting her cheer for basketball and making her cheer football. She has learned so much from football and I know it's going to pay off when it comes time for JV tryouts in a couple of years.

I can't wait for football to be over. It's going to be a relief when it does, but I am also going to hate to see the first season ever to be over. My family and I was a part of Southeastern history by being a part of football. Thank you all so much who made it possible. I know I may not have seemed greatful enough, but I truly am. I really can't wait for the Hayden game to approach so I can finally watch Jesse(Steph's "boyfriend") play and her can watch her cheer. That also means that Abby(his mom & very dear friend of mine) will be there taking pictures so I don't have too ;-)

I really don't have much more to say at the moment. Until next time....

Teaser Thursday

I have lots of pictures coming soon..I hope!! With a story of how much Remlap and Southeastern mean to me!!

Robary-Robery

It seems as though getting to spend an evening with Robert and watching tv together always seems to make things better. Like I said yesterday, he never gets paid on pay day. So if that doesn't put enough stress on him/us, let me tell you what tops it all off..I wake up every morning at 5:30. So I was looking through the girls clothes this morning to find them something to wear when the phone starts ringing. I was thinking of how I was going to give whoever was calling so early a piece of my mind while I was trying to find the phone. I never got to it in time so I was hoping that whoever it was would leave a message. Never did...About 10 minutes later the phone rings again and so I answered it. The lady on the other end asked for Robert and so I went in the living room to get him. I made sure to let him know it was 5:30 in the morning and that someone was calling here for him. After a few minutes of listening to him talk, he hung up and told me that we had to find a way to get in touch with Sam(a she) and Mario. They are the owners of the restaraunt where Robert works. It was Jefferson County cop letting him know that the restaraunt had been broke into and robbed. She said that it was all tore apart and looked really bad. So there is the stress of wondering if he will get to go back to work on Friday like he was scheduled or not. Also too, if he is even going to get his paycheck then or not. I know that this whole donating plasma isn't cutting it. But if you reap and bad seed, then a bad thing is going to come back to you. I did make sure to tell Robert that he was going to get up to the Employment office Monday for Tyson not later that 4:30 and he might just have to camp out over there..Haha. That was sarcasim by the way...That's all I really have on my mind for now....

A Troublesome Tuesday

I really need to get back on this whole blogging thing. To be honest, I can tell that I am getting a little too bored with Facebook because I am posting everything that comes across my mind on there. With everything that has been going on lately, it really is time to get this blog up and going. I can write it on here and it's your choice if you want to hear me gripe, complain, brag, or what not. I feel like I need to apologize in advance for it not looking nice. I am slowly enough getting the hang of it.


I have had so much on me lately that God will lift those burdens off me then the devil will turn around and put more on me. It has all started off with Robert's boss not paying when he is supposed to and when he does get paid it's rarely the full amount. Robert has been trying so hard to find a new job, but can't find luck anywhere. He goes weekly to Tyson and is usually one of the first 3 there. They aren't going to be calling for any interveiws until they open the factory back up for good which won't be for about another week. To add to all the financial stress, something is always going wrong on our cars. This week it's the van running hot. Robert usually drives the van but because of work, he is having to take the car because he will be doing more driving this week then me. So with the van running hot, I am only allowed to take the girls to school and back until it gets fixed. We are thinking it's the thermostat that's messed up. Well, because of all this happening I couldn't get the girls to cheer practice last night and it's now caused Steph to not go to competition. I've yet to tell her because I know when I do, it will break her heart. I understand rules are rules, but I'm sure those rules was made for those in past who just didn't want ot show up but maybe once a week and still expect to be completely and fully invovled. Not my case and I can/will guarantee you that. I really do think that some people don't know what it's like to really struggle or have little to nothing at all. Please don't get me wrong, I am very blessed and thankful for all that I do have, but when you are limited at times, then others need to me a little more considerate or lenient to situations in a time of need. But then again too, maybe I am a little too soft hearted and I need to harden up some...All in all, God has a plan for my family when all this is said and done. It's also brought us closer together, but I can't wait for the day that we can go to the thrift store and just blow a hard earned extra 50 bucks!

My First

I created this a while back. I wasn't sure to if I really wanted to write or not. Now that I stay on Facebook and not Myspace, I really felt that using this now was just perfect. I have recently moved out of my parents house and into with Robert. the pressure that I was under with my parents(mostly mom) was getting to be too much. We moved in the 3rd week of April. It wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be. I did most the moving myself. Now it's 2 months later and everything is settled and doesn't seem as new. I have most everything in places I want. I am hoping to start painting soon. The girls will continue to go school at Southeastern. It's too good of a school to send them anywhere else. I would even pay for them to go there, if it ever came to that. Stephanie will be going into 4th grade and is so excited about getting her very first locker. Dallas will be going into 1st grade. She is still in speech but continues to improve so much. Kent will be 2 in the end of July. He is talking so much more now, but not too much. His favorite words are Mamma(my mom),Mickey Mouse,Bella(our dog),God,bye,and Mama. SO as I started writting this, it was rather peaceful in the house. With my luck though, the girls start fighting. In other words, I hope to write alot and share my life with everyone. In the mean time, I'm "signing off".